Friday, April 07, 2006
i reali pity her..is it call pity? everytime i hurt her..i feel so dam bad n like im e most hateful person in e world..how can i hurt her? aft all she has been thru for me n e fam? sometimes i reali hate myself for doin tings im doin..wat m i tryin 2 prove anyway?! i dun noe.. but sometimes it reali get on my nerve..i love her..but i tink she dun believe i do..seeing her worry abt job..us..dad make her look so old..so tired..i reali wanna go ober n hug her..tell her everyting is alright..she dun have 2 stress herself so much..but wat will she say? most prob.."tt's y u both dun give me worry..i everynite cannot slp u noe? thinkin abt stuff..i veri heartpain c u all like dis..." *translation fr teochew" say im selfish..cos i reali am..i dun wan 2 hurt myself..yet.. hu m i?! i cant even ans tt qn.. i dun even dare say a sorry to her.. or them.. haix...
drowning in my sorrows n hurt n loneliness...
thinking of you @ 12:42 AM